5/12/03
Ok, so I'm not as ambitious about posting anymore... sorry.

Work has not been exciting but my weekends have made up for it! Dave and I went to a movie on Friday, to Universal Studios on Saturday, and canoeing again on Sunday. Tons of fun! Of course he's fallen for me. Who wouldn't? Well, Dr Stupid hasn't and he's the one I still want. There you have it. I still want Dr Too Stupid To Know How Perfect Cathy Is For Him. I can see myself with him, I don't see myself with Dave (not that way). Besides that I liked being just friends with him and now I'm freaking out about how that's going to be a bit messed up. Jeopardized, that's the word. Friends with priviledges isn't an option anymore, I'm too old for that.

Anyway, that's the drama in my life at the moment. Drama is good and it will give Shannon and I lots to talk about tonight. Pat's out of the office for at least two more days because she had knee surgery so that makes this place feel more relaxed.

Alright, time to get some work done. I'll try to post more often again but don't hold your breath!

5/6/03
My bathtub is driving me insane. Absolutely insane. For awhile there it wasn't thumping at all but the noise has come back with a vengence. I've complained twice at the rental office in the last three days but no one has come by to look at it. I think they all know that they're going to be baffled. It wakes me up at night, I'm getting pissed off.

Still no word from Carl. I almost feel like I should call because there must be some sort of misunderstanding. Why else wouldn't have he called me? Ok, I care and I don't care at the same time. I'd care more he was still the only person I knew outside of work. But now Dave is my new best friend around here. We're going to spend Saturday up in Orlando hitting the theme park of my choice and on Sunday we'll do the whole day canoe trip with Diane and her husband. Should be super cool, I can't wait! Next weekend I'll be in Ft Lauderdale to visit Henrik and just maybe I'll have a visitor at the end of the month so May is really shaping up well!!

I left work at 8:30 tonight and at 7 last night. I like having more time in the evening. So this week I'm going to try to go in a bit earlier so I can leave when I want to! Pat is out of the office until sometime next week (knee surgery) so it's nice and laid back. I have been getting lots done with everyone gone in the evenings, I just put in some music and work. It must be the music that's key to being productive, I wish I could have it going all of the time.

Alright, I'm going to bed.

5/4/03
Well Carl never called. How rude! It's Sunday night, he didn't even call me today! I don't really care, but I am a bit irked. If I hadn't been busy today I would've been more upset. His loss.

Dave and I had a blast canoeing today. We were out for about four hours, at least one of those was spent at a swim hole where we cracked open a few beers and just swam and relaxed. There were gators along the edge as we canoed but I guess they weren't in this spot because there was a strong current. We had to get back by 5 or they start charging you outrageous amounts of money. I still wanted to swim more because it still felt like 90 out and there were clear skies. So we decided to head to the beach! We swam there for awhile then went to Dune Dogs for dinner (hot dogs, yum!). After that we went back to his place, a nice house out in the country, where I had left my car. I was pooped but he suggested going back into town for a movie so we did! I figured as long as I was out I couldn't wuss out and just go home! We went to see Identity. Wow. Love John Cusack, he did an excellent job. I wasn't expecting it to be such a thriller! Then we stopped by Starbucks for a drink before I finally did go home.

I think this ranks up there as my favorite day in Florida so far! We squeezed in wild animals, rivers, oceans, hot dogs, movies... so fun! Dave is great company, it was so comfortable hanging out with him.

Now I'm thinking that eating a hot dog wasn't such a great idea because my stomach is killing me. And I have to be at work tomorrow, ugh. So I'm off to bed to recover!

5/4/03
New pics have been added to my photo album in case any of you would like to check that out!

5/3/03
Alright, I'm going to do a middle-of-my-day entry today. Otherwise I may not get around to posting. I've been so lazy of late.

So I went out with Shannon and Diane last night, a few of Diane's friends also joined us. It was my night out so that I could forget about Dr Stupid. We went to a baseball game and hit the bar, it was so much fun. And then we ran into Dr Stupid. Seriously, how is that possible? Shannon says that it's fate that he's supposed to see me (because I was looking all cute of course) and then he'll fall for me. Diane was just upset that her good plan to make me forget was ruined. Because, of course, after that he was all I could really think about. We went to a second bar where I started to really talk to Dave, one of Diane's friends. He's about two months out of a divorce, 32, and really cool except for the fatal flaw of being a republican.

So today Dave called and we went to the beach together! It was so much fun having company. First we went out for a veggie lunch and then we were out in the sun for about four hours! We had a great time talking, he worked at BN for awhile so we had a lot of bookstore stories to share. We've read a lot of the same books too so that was cool. After we left the beach he took me on a tour of PBG, I had no idea there was so much more to this town! I know that he wanted to do something tonight too but I told Carl that we would get together. However, Dave and I are going out again tomorrow. We're going canoeing, which is going to be so cool! I'm looking forward to it.

So you all want to know if I'm interested in Dave, right? Not really. Much like the situation with Carl, there's just nothing really there for me. I can't tell what he's thinking just yet except that he seems really anxious to spend a lot of time with me right away. But who wouldn't want to?

It's going to be a very full weekend to say the least! Plans last night, this afternoon, tonight, tomorrow afternoon, wow! I'm waiting for Carl to call right now, I think we'll go out for drinks and he said something about seeing a movie too.

Ok, I'm going to watch tv until he calls.

4/30/03
I talked to Karen for a few minutes this afternoon. I told her that it was going to be hard for her to answer when people asked how her trip was. How do you sum up four months of such variety with ups and downs? Soon she'll just say something like "oh, it was really good!" and that will be the end of it. Sounds like she wasn't too upset having to say goodbye to Mary, they were ready to part again! To be expected of course. I wish I didn't have to wait until August to see the pictures.

Alright, I must go to bed before I fall right over.

4/23/03
And tonight I'm doing this before midnight, this is amazing. I'm going to bed soon. I've got to be up by 5 to get everything together before I head out. Ugh. I'll probably go back to sleep on the plane. I wish I had a direct flight but I'm flying thru Dallas. On the way back I fly thru Chicago.

Today I went to work at noon and went up to the other campus with Pat. The car ride was actually not bad, we had pretty good conversations. They have a nice library up there. I went to a staff meeting that was very boring and I hope that I don't have to go along again. The day back at my campus flew by since I went right on the desk. I left work just before 8 because I could. I was so tired that I wasn't getting anything done anyway. No sightings, nothing exciting to report.

Tonight I packed, did some laundry, cleaned up, paid my bills, watched West Wing (I was taping it but I couldn't resist turning it on instead), and tried to tire myself out! I'm not tired but I'm going to bed anyway. I'm glad I left work early because I'm not feeling rushed or anything.

Tomorrow night at this time I'll be staying up late talking to Kim and Jenny! Two nights from right now I'll be at the reception. Three nights from now I'll be playing cards with Erika and my family. Four nights from now I'll be right back where I am now. Crazy.

Alright, nothing more of interest for me to say. Oh except that I finally became a member of Ecology Fund! About time I guess. And I also donated to World Parks. Two donations makes up for last month. I'll have to find something else to donate to next month!

4/22/03
Ok, all of this getting up early stuff is tiring me out! For once I'm actually tired before 2. I'm looking forward to bed tonight. I'll get up early tomorrow too though I actually don't have anything in particular to do. Maybe I'll go for a walk. I just don't want to mess up my schedule now!

Work was boring. I had a committee meeting about the new person we're hiring. Hopefully we'll find someone decent but most of us agreed on the top candidates so that's good. Phone interviews will be next week already. The rest of the day wasn't memorable. Diane, Patrick and I spent more time discussing Dr Stupid and they were going to go talk to him tonight but he was gone by then. Carl came in for a bit and we talked for only a few minutes before he took off. Boys are all dumb.

Ok, now it's getting late and I don't want to catch a second wind.

4/21/03
Wow, an entry at midnight, this is early! I have to be up in the morning so I thought if I could trick myself into thinking that it was later, maybe I'd be able to go to bed before 1. I did go to bed at a decent hour last night but I think the sugar and caffine did have an effect on me because I just couldn't fall asleep. Despite that, I miraculously woke up at about 9:45 this morning and was just wide awake. How bizzare is that?

As long as I was awake I decided to get up. I went to Kmart and picked out a new comforter set (a bed-in-a-bag by Martha Stewart), stopped by the grocery store, and then came home and excitedly made my bed. I like having a bed skirt, the whole thing looks fantastic. Then I had plenty of time to get ready for work and I even got in early. What a day! Who knew I could get so much done in the morning?

I wore my cute outfit to work today with my little sexy sandals as planned. Dr Stupid didn't come in during his office hours as usual so Diane, Patrick and I conspired together for awhile. I told them to go and tell him to get his butt in gear and ask me out. We were joking about who would get credit at the wedding for hooking us up. Patrick said that he needed to think things over for a bit so we all went back to work. Two minutes later Patrick books it out the door and goes over to Dr Stupid's office on the premise of bringing him a book catalog. However, he was talking with another professor. I figure that it'll be a bit embarrassing but Patrick and Diane know that if they say anything, they have to act like I'm out of the loop on it all, like they're planning this without me.

I did get a sighting though, not until closer to six. This is how it went: He returned an overdue video. I asked how his Easter was, he said non-traditional and asked how mine was. I said that I was working and he said it sounded like my holiday was non-traditional as well. I said that I did get to eat a chocolate bunny. He said that he ate a bag of... no wait that was at Christmas and we laughed. Then he said that he had to get going but that he'd talk to me later. I said ok bye. And then I had a dopey grin on my face for the rest of the night much to Shannon's amusement. And there you have it.

Alright, now it's 1 because I got distracted for a minute there and started reading a book of collected stories that Erika gave me. And then I started looking up poetry online for no reason.

I'm listening to Nina Simone. The world lost a great woman today.

4/20/03
I didn't turn on the tv once today. I think it's national Turn Off the TV week or something but that's just a coincidence. I went to work in jeans thinking that we'd see about five people but it turned out to be a regular Sunday, slow but not dead. I'm happy I was dressed down anyway because I worked back in the stacks and was pretty dusty by the time I finished.

After work I did go out with Carl. He wasn't home when I called him at 9 and I was kind of relieved because I thought it would be great if he couldn't make it. Of course just like last time, when I was dreading out night out, we had a lot of fun. The beach is so beautiful at night. There was just enough light to see, the surf was bright white against a dark blue. Of course he tried to put the moves on me and I wiggled my way out of it. I'm getting to be really good at that.

Now it's just past two and I'm all ready for bed! I picked out the cutest outfit for tomorrow. My red skirt with flowers embroidered on it (from Haite Ashbury in San Fran, very cool) and a simple white top with my sexy sandals. To save money, the buildings on campus aren't being cooled down as much so the library is actually comfortable this week. That means I don't need to wear heavy sweaters.

Ok, I'm actually tired! This is a good thing!! And a bit surprising after the big coke I had earlier tonight. And the chocolate bunny, and the Cadbury eggs... you'd think I'd be so high on sugar tonight that sleep would be impossible. Hope you all had a happy Easter!

4/19/03
I swore that tonight I would be in bed by 2 but it's 2:15 right now so that idea is a goner. I am going to bed right after this though, I swear. My flight on Thursday is at 8am, which means being at the airport at such an ungodly hour. Of course I could just stay up all night but I can't do that since I have so much to do that weekend! So I've got to start getting to bed earlier in preparation.

I went to the beach again today but only for an hour and half or so. I could've stayed longer but I did want to run errands. Besides I didn't want to overdue it on the sun. I went to Kmart (which I thought was a Target all this time) but they didn't have any good umbrellas, chairs, or goo gone which is all I wanted to get! I did come home with a few things that I didn't know I needed (finally bought a frame for my UT degree) as is always the case. I also went to the nearby shopping mall to return a dress but once I was in the mall I realized I'd forgotten the dress at home. I went to Victoria's Secret to pick something up for Kim and found some new clothes for myself at Wet Seal. I really don't like shopping in the teenybob stores but the stuff fits.

Tonight I watched my tv lineup and I just finished getting lunches made for this week. This will be my third short week in a row since I'm taking Thursday off. And next week will be short too! Guess it's my lucky month.

Alright, I'm off to bed.

4/18/03
I should've moved to Florida years ago. I love it here. I woke up and ran to the drugstore for more suntan lotion and then went to the beach. I was there for at least three hours sunning, swimming, reading and just enjoying myself to the fullest. Now I'm nice and tan (ok, a little pink in spots). I also picked up my bridesmaid dress so that is finally done. I meant to go to Target but I didn't feel like it. I want to buy a beach chair and umbrella, I was very envious of everyone else who had those things today. I will buy two chairs so that I have an extra when my friends get around to visiting me.

Instead of Target I stayed here and actually managed to clean a lot. I vacuumed the whole place, cleaned the bathroom and the kitchen, and dusted a bit. I watched three episodes of Law & Order, followed by Bill Maher and Def Poetry. I tried to find a cool backgound for this site but couldn't find anything that I really liked.

Now it's almost 3am and I swore that I was going to be in bed earlier than this. I want to go back to the beach tomorrow and then to Target and the grocery store so I can't sleep the day away!

4/17/03
Woohoo, my weekend is here!! I'm going to go to the beach twice if the weather is nice, just because I can. And because I couldn't last week. And I can't next week. I want to be tan for the wedding. Jenny, one of the other bridesmaids, went to one of those new tanning places where you stand in a chamber and you get sprayed tan. I guess it's like doing the self tanning lotion only it's even. Kim said that it worked really well and that Jenny looks good. I'd be afraid of something like that. I'll stick to my beach tan instead. However, my hair has not lightened up one bit since I got here so it's going to get a bit of help with some Sun-In. I wanted it to be natural but it's just not happening.

I called Carl tonight after work but I told him that we'd have to get together on Sunday night instead. I promised him that I would not cancel on him or anything like that. So I have three days to get my act together (to get the guts) to talk to him. He found a cool place for us to check out right along the beach, that should be fun.

Tonight I made pizza, cracked open a beer, and watched Serpico. Thursday night is such a bad tv night after 10pm. Now it's 3am and I've got to go to bed. I'm not going to let myself sleep in tomorrow or I'll miss some good beach time. I'm already debating which book to bring with me. I've started Catcher in the Rye (which has to get better in the next 20 pages or I'm quitting), Everything is Illuminated, Cleopatra's Nose, and Please Pass the Butterworms. Oh and I also finally got ahold of a copy of War is a Force that Gives Us Meaning but I don't know if that's beach reading or not. Probably not.

4/16/03
Bear with me. I decided the other page was taking too long to load because it had too many entries, I needed a new start. But I'm not happy with the colors so expect them to change in the next few days as I contemplate my options.

No sightings today either which means I'm for sure out of luck until at least Monday. Too bad because I looked cute in a skirt for the second day in a row. Tonight I finally called Carl, I had told him I would call when I got back from Charlotte. He wanted to come right over but I said no. I told him maybe we'd do something when I was done with work tomorrow. I've got to tell him sometime but I'm a wuss.

Tonight for dinner I ate reheated mashed potatoes and edamame, both of which I ate with cool chopsticks that Kim gave me. Right now I'm drinking my soy chocolate milk and am listening to Faithless. I'm about to go to bed, I don't think I've been getting enough sleep lately.

Why can't West Wing be real? I want him to be my president.